I can't seem to sleep for all of the thoughts running through my head tonight.  We're getting ready to go on vacation and I'm feeling overwhelmed; my list of things to do keeps growing, yet I'm doing nothing to get ready.  Today was the last day of kindergarten and I'm feeling sad.  I had a fun day with my boys, helping at school, eating a celebratory lunch and purchasing new shoes for summer and I'm feeling content.  I just had my hair done and I'm feeling feminine again. 

I just can hardly wrap my mind around the fact that I don't have a kindergartener anymore.  He is growing up so fast.  It is so trite to say that they grow up too fast, but they really do.  I remember on my son's 3rd birthday I actually shed a few tears when he seemed so old; his response, "but I'll always be your sweetheart."   But now everyone is telling me to cherish the fact that he'll grow out of the desire to snuggle and cuddle and to take advantage of it while it lasts.  How can he be getting older when I feel like I am standing still?  Just yesterday I carried him, now I'm holding his hand and tomorrow he'll be running off on another adventure.  If only we could keep them small, but then if we could I would have missed out on all of the joy that has been kindergarten and preschool.  I am looking forward to tomorrow, just wondering what it will bring, and wishing that it would slow down a bit.  As long as you still wish to fly like Peter Pan whenever you throw a penny into a fountain and as long as you'll hold my had when we go shopping I gues I'll be content.  I suppose that if it weren't so much fun and I didn't have such wonderful little boys then I really wouldn't care, but boy oh, boy this is a really fun ride!